I woke up on my own too. When something effects you personally ,that is when you seriously question things.
Over the course of two years many things about the organization began to bother me . I saw clearly hypocrisy within the congregation on how people were treated . They said they had brotherly love ,but I saw it was very conditional .The Elders could not apply the simple principle of being a Good Samaritan. I was sickened by how much emphasis was given to following the GB instead of God or Jesus. I began sitting back and really looking at people in the Hall ....they were sad, haggard ,and worn down . I kept wondering why so many were on anti-depressants .
Then one day I was watching the Dr Phil show ,and he had two girls on there named Fawn .Both had escaped a cult out west . They spoke about how afraid they were to leave ,because they would be destroyed at Armageddon ,and their family and friends would shun them .All they wanted was freedom to make their own decisions instead of having to follow the group think of the cult .I kept saying to the television 'That's how I feel !" I can't remember all the advice Dr Phil gave them ,but I do remember him speaking about Stephen Hasson and how cults keep you suppressed ,and in fear . He spoke to anyone watching the show that we don't need to be in fear like that .....and that is not how God would want us to worship him . This made me feel so bold and courageous that I made my first attempt to come on this forum and read ! I thought I was weak and all alone in my doubts of the society ,then all of the sudden here were hundreds maybe thousands of others feeling and saying exactly what I was thinking !